Not sure what to think

I'm feeling a little strange today.  Not physically, but emotionally maybe?  I quit facebook yesterday, which has been interesting.  I already "miss" it.  But I think that's because it had become such an easy habit to just come into my office, sit down and have a gander at what's happening amongst my friends.  However, my house got cleaned today and I baked a whole lotta bread, so that made up for the loss of entertainment, or whatever it is that facebook was to me.  I feel like I've woken up and the world around me has changed while I was in facebook land.  I know that sounds weird, but that's how I feel.
Then, tonight I had to bring supper out to the farm because we have started building our barn, finally.  Rick and Nathan were out there cleaning off the concrete forms and had the boys with them all day.  So, the girls and I made supper and headed out.  There were a lot of interesting clouds in the sky and the light seemed different somehow.  Anyway, it was very beautiful as the fields are again a patchwork of golds and sages and browns.  Fall is creeping up on us and although we had the hottest days of summer this past week (of course, right when the guys were doing the heaviest work on the barn), it has cooled considerably today.
I had only been at the farm for a few minutes when Rick informed me that our horse, for whom we were building this barn, was dead.  Apparently it choked to death while in the hands of the trainer where it has been for the past several months.  If that wasn't odd enough, the guy with us said his dad had one die while in the care of the same trainer.  So, maybe no one else thinks so, but I think that's quite a coincidence.  I wasn't crazy about this horse, I admit.  It was very young, very large (nearly 17 hands tall) and a bit of a spitfire.  I was a little nervous about bringing it out to the farm what with the kids and all.  But there is no way that I wanted it to die.  I'm pretty sad about it.  After all, it was our pet and we had invested quite a bit into it, not just financially, but emotionally as we were looking forward to having our first animal at the farm permanently.  We had it there last fall for several months and I have pictures of my kids with him.  He was a beauty, a Tennessee Walker, and very graceful even though he was untrained.  He would get very excited, like an enormous puppy whenever we came to see him and I never saw a horse get so alert and happy when our friends brought the other horses he had been with before we bought him to pasture with him.  I thought that if he could wag his tail, he would have.  So, now he's gone.  Just like that.  I'd been thinking it was high time we went to see his progress and that he should be ready by now.  I don't really know what to think...but I am sad.